christian mcdonough – 100 poems for d.f.l. (#1-50)
Don’t Fucking Lift ? - Dare to Fry your Lies ? - Don’t Fail Life ! - Sun goes down, And burns the town, The wave comes up, And douses the luck, You cannot see What you have done To me. - How come I write to you, Again and again, As if you were My friend? - This world And all other worlds And- I mean, The world is made up Of all possible worlds Except… I don’t know it I just say it And it’s dumb. - Dumm ter lumm My Dumm is life ing Towards proxy-mate Loffter Tropt top the calendar The deet of me leaf, Me barf. - Rolling apart The, this, Fart Of a life… - Someone once told you That you could not But you can! And other people also said things, Lies, Which you took to be true. I suppose you could listen, Or ignore, Whoever you like But don’t we hate that? Now, At this point In time? - Did you ever stop to look, To think, About what you have done? What you did in the past? What your plans for the future mean? In light of all, Of everything? Or, rather, In the face of nothing, The nothing which might be coming For us all, Soon enough. - Sometimes silly sounds Sometimes horrible hounds The hounds are coming Into town Ready to eat your guts and kill you And, generally, To bring about a dour mood. - I love it- To scream. - Ahhhh, How sweet life can be To sit and eat Or just to sit Ahhh, Or else, To create Or to masturbate Ahhh, What else, What else…? - Why not On Continued Whatever - There were three people Once they They killed one other And then only two Between the two of them A third This third called A something Something new It killed them And it was one - Youth like to scratch their own noses For no known reasons This scratching a rebellion The truth of all rebellion It took them far Far away from all To all others A new world Where only scratching happened ‘Til they bled And died - Blood everywhere A mountain of blood The hills, the ice The snow, All blood. This blood only continued And became something true And real Someone decided to know it To hold it Forever For no reason For every reason I DON’T KNOW WHO THAT IS! I DON’T KNOW WHAT THEY WANT! SAVE ME! SAVE ME! HELP ME! PLEASE! - How the birds fly… How the waters are clear and blue… How the sky fills me with a sense Of pride… How I know this life All that it means to me…! All that it does for me…! O, so beautiful… Yes… - Nothing is here. Here is nothing! Moreover, I took it from you I took life from you, Just now, And now you have nothing. You look and see blackness, Emptiness, A lack, That’s all. - Under this waxing tear Where the red shines And the grey wallows, We see the brain Of great “Gods” And seething beggars. It is pure, In a sense, Innocent, In a pinch, And clear. It moves out, up, and Away. It does not stay. It cries out, The light fades from the eyes, The heat-death triumphs, And children laugh and scream. - Impure, This moment Meant only for some, For others, maybe, To know, To feel, How it all came crashing apart, Down, Dirty, wet, Slippery. Hollow… And ugly faces All looking at you Hiding from you And crawling into you… Oh, no, Not this, yet, yes- A basket was raised up to the sky To be kissed. - Numerous Longing Failing Gurtle A turtle Plimp And trucked - Queaf utterance Below the buns The disgusting filth Of one, no one Shy away Lack life Be good Sallow Untreated The minutiae, The millions, The mites. - Free me Free yourself Free others Freedom What? What for? Constant banging away Banging your head hard against it. And then what? And then who? And why? Why-dom!? Dum-dum? - Please, Purpose This purpose comes around To you To be held by you And treasured. To be known and loved. It is kind and sweet. It’s not for me, really. Not my kind of thing. But for you, why not!? - Onwards and upwards ‘Til we reach the very peak What will that mean? What will we make of it? I’m not so sure. Things get unclear, Confused, Weak and ill Stupid, even. Here, at the top. - I need you to know That you can be Only what I say. - I need you to hear, That you are, Only mine. - You need me For living A certain way. - You are unhappy Only because Of your mind. - Don’t dose yourself Don’t drown yourself Listen, Listen, You are there, Deep within. Don’t hide from it Don’t prevent it Don’t hurt yourself It will be alright. You will be ok. - Hang on! And ride it willingly! Stoop to the depths! And careen to the peaks! Your body was made for this! Made for something more! Why have you hid from it? What is it that you will do? And yes, you will do it. Do not secede. Do not hide. - But… There were others, There were times, There were struggles, There were nights, Where you were gone, Where you were not there, Where you lost sight, Of all that was there. You didn’t know, You didn’t mean it, You didn’t realize, What it all might have meant. - Do you still hide? Do you still fall? You have grown, Is that not true? You have seen, Felt, and known, Anything And everything. What did it mean To you? - Stump face Dumb brace Dirty hair Fat mace - I don’t know a thing. I don’t hold a bin. I never told you something You didn’t hold within. - There is more, o, so much more A whole infinity unknown Unseen and unheard But you have it there! - Do you like it? Oh, yes, you do! - Perfect Silent Still Amazing Perfect There Tragic Real Felt Treaty formed unreal Blasphemy turned outward Toward a new realization - Take your life Yes And make it into a sphere Look over it Manipulate it And recreate it - Recall your trauma One deep and hidden Now speak it out Over and over and over - Run, far and away Feel your feet burn Feel your chest heave Embrace it Burn it all out Push yourself Continue - Ventriloquize yourself Contort your body Make it laugh and sing Make it sociable and sweet Make it suffer And triumph - Stupid past Still here but not Haunting me - Mean little child Who is stupid Silly little infant Who doesn’t know Stay away from me. - Hahaha Funny face Baby Weirdo Goodbye - ‘Twas a crazyman Whom I never cared for One who threatened To kill a lost friend Another person Who I now Do not care for… - Fuckmeat Deadbeat Lamestreet Feet - Little nonsense For little no one - Tiny, unspeakable things For none to read @CMhcrDiosntoiua HOME
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