aniket sanyal – 5 poems
Health
I don’t exercise
But dream often
Sometimes wonder
As I wander
Beside & beneath
The abyss of all
Somehow life prevails
Onward
Upward
Despite my slow
Suicidal lack
Of movement
on this day
feel nothing
not true
feel something
anything
questions: who am I
what is pertinent
just as I
so will you
on this day
I am reckoning
all hurt
of years past
today is fresh
pressed & scrubbed
out of the wash
help help
help me
and I shall aid you
what point
to the toil
the burn & sting
of sword
or song
I am asking plainly
in my pleasant voice
to crave
is to mean what
precisely
when I am happily unaware
of food & related sewage
what do I crave
do not bait me
with myriad affection(s)
the world is endless
and finds new ways
to frighten me
I have lost
my sword-point
I am lost
in a forest
a fortress
my synapses
are not
on speaking terms
thus:
we must agree
to disagree
fault
god given this
goddamn idiot hatred
bordering new wilderness
fresh total collapse
piece back peace
post meal, before usual
song, dance & fugue
I ask, breath full
of careful mercy
please
destroy me
always cancer
in my narrow river
rivulet, sweaty marrow
later—applause—
for we will have ourselves
new genie
or genius
fates, bones & stones
be damned
faint praise for persuasion
as if religion
could fix the match—
or a face
there it is: clever goddess
in careless amalgam
with brutality
this mid star
loony of a bore
for hard times
all colored Hell
spat black dust
surrendered rose gold
so the spatter bled true
to look at me is to know
spatter of the above
bled to surface
clogged with clot
creamy refuse
getting diseased, poor-man days
getting runny with rut
all turning to scum
I am that one, such scum
hear me whimper,
see me moan
ANIKET SANYAL'S recent work has appeared in DON'T SUBMIT, Fugitives & Futurists, Expat Press, and Terror House Press. He can be found on Twitter at @AniketSanyal6.
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